At the age of ten
he asked when
but was told not now
he asked over and over
but he never got the truth

At the age of sixteen
he awoke to a nightmare

At the age of eighteen
he asked what
but this time was told he asks the wrong question
so he did the only thing left
he kept asking questions
but none seemed to create a response

At the age of twenty five
he decided he had been so obsessed that he had lost himself
and became the very thing he hated most
annoying

If walking on the beach is representative of life then let me show you mine
The sand kicked up
while the winds howled
a boy walked alone to a randomly chosen destination
landmarks went noticed but seemed to slip in and out of focus
he passed people by and they would either move with him for a while or just sit there
during the walk his mind wandered but his head was face down
he stared at his feet not forwards nor back

Its time to accept what has happened
the images run forwards and backwards over and over in my head
she walks into the horizon and like that just disappears
it was a goodbye
just like that it came and went
everything is so short
the silhouette is stained in the back of my eyes
forever more i sit in my castle

That With Luck Good
Different Be And
Work Will It Time This That
Believe To Want We Because Its
Things Pointless On Breathe And
Time Our Waste Why So
Different Inevitably Is Life
Different Be To Wants Everyone
Left To Right And
Top To Bottom From Read When
Sense Makes Only Poem This

Reality check
who do you think you are?
so you have long hair
and your smart
big deal
your an asshole
a dick
its been said many times
and you even believe it
but to see it should do more justice than hearing it over and over
you always find a way to fuck things up
its damn impressive
its a shame
you were given a gift
and you throw it away
the scariest part
is
I am you.